Who am I, after MTT?

Niagara Falls, Canada ( photo by Marnie Kaplan)

Some days, I honestly don't recognize myself. Since practicing Meridian Therapy & Tapping (MTT), I've let go of beliefs and habits that once felt permanent. It's remarkable; I'll expect an old reaction to surface, simply because it used to be automatic, but it doesn't. The neural pathway has been cleared, and the pattern just isn't there anymore. It surprises me how deeply this work rewires not just my mind, but my entire experience.

Before MTT, I was mildly OCD, a perfectionist, and hyper-organized about my day. I planned the order of my to-do list, and if something threw me off, I would get frustrated and angry.   I was very emotional, critical, and harsh on myself. On occasion, I would be up for hours at night, stressing about an experience I had, reliving a perceived shame.

Since I discovered MTT, I‘ve been amazed at how quickly and easily I can release limiting beliefs, let go of emotional baggage, genuinely forgive myself and others, and break free from attachments to old thought patterns.  Each session brings a noticeable shift; I can feel it in my body and in the clarity of my mind. I just know something has changed.  What's even more validating is that others see it too. The most eye-opening part has been realizing how much anger and reactions were affecting me, something I couldn't fully see until they were gone.

Here are examples:

Anger

Before

Since the pandemic, I have been angry a lot. It was a part of my life, at work, at home, and especially while driving. It got to a point where my husband said, “It's brutal to drive with you. Do you hear yourself?”  I was grateful for the awareness, but how can I change it?

After

I noticed people cutting me off or doing things I would normally get angry about, but I had very little reaction.  I'm completely blown away. That's not to say I don't react, but if I do, I just let it go. My anger has diminished considerably. MTT has been a safe, easy, and pleasant way to move past it. I honestly never thought it would be possible to release anger so simply.

Frustration

Before & After

I do my laundry first thing on Tuesday mornings. Once, I slept in late, and with laundry in hand, I walked towards the washing machine just as my husband hit the start button. “You snooze. You lose,” he said. I looked at him and asked, “Since when do you do laundry on Tuesday morning?" I walked away. A little while later, he said, “Who are you? You didn’t get mad or react.”

Months later, my reactions are still minimal. If I get upset or frustrated, I can let it go quickly and move on. I don't dwell on it or beat myself up about it. In the past, whatever it was could have affected the better part of my day, if not the entire day.

Self-criticism

A few days after I returned from Ecuador for my MTT certification, I assisted at an Insight 1 seminar. At the end of the first day, I was the only one out of 17 assistants called out for not doing my job well.

Before

I would have been highly critical of myself. I would have beat myself up and replayed the experience in my head over and over, feeling bad and shameful.  I would have been awake all night, stressing about it.

After

I said to myself, “OK! I can do better tomorrow," let it go, and left it in the room. I went back to my hotel room, and I had a wonderful sleep. Months later, I no longer have any mean, angry thoughts towards myself. I cannot even describe how this one thing has dramatically changed my life!

It's hard to describe the joy that comes from letting go of anger, frustration, and decades of self-criticism!

For years, I carried beliefs from my childhood that quietly shaped my reality, keeping me stuck. Despite years of personal growth, energy healing, coaching, and mentoring, there was still something missing. A way to immediately eliminate my unconscious limiting beliefs. Then I found MTT, and everything began to shift.

By Marnie Kaplan, CMTTP