The Universe Gave Me a Push I Was Terrified to Take

For years, I dreamed about starting my own business - giving the energy healing work I’ve always done on the side my full attention, supporting others through transformation, doing what I knew I was meant to do.

But there was always something in the way: the salary, the healthcare, the financial security. Walking away from comfort, even when that comfort was no longer aligned with me, was frightening. Then the decision was made for me. After twenty years at the same company, I was let go with no warning. One day, they were publicly celebrating my work ethic for over twenty years.  Two weeks later, “Bye-bye.”

I was shocked. Hurt. Angry. For many years, I felt I was part of a family - seen, valued, and appreciated. But none of that mattered last May. Decades of loyalty and hard work were swept aside as if it never happened. I felt reduced to a number, dismissed without compassion. Just another item to check off the to-do list.

I felt both shock and relief.  Initially, I got the support I needed from friends and family. Then, I became extremely grateful I had been gathering the tools needed for dealing with exactly this kind of situation for decades, and I had been helping others in similar circumstances for years. Now I had the time and space to focus on managing my own transition and healing my own hurts and fears for however long it would take.  

Being discarded in the workplace can be traumatic.  It was for me. I gave myself full permission to feel every emotion, to hold each one in a loving, nonjudgmental space. I allowed the energy of the emotion to linger for as long as it needed until it dissolved, and until the next uncomfortable one came over me. It felt endless at times, wave after wave I couldn't control - until eventually, the ocean within me calmed. I found a sense of neutrality – a quiet, grounded presence.  

The weight I have been carrying for years suddenly lifted. I felt a sense of freedom I had not experienced before.  What I really needed was a complete change of scenery and a break from all responsibility. After so many years of pressure, I craved space to just be. 

My husband and I took off for over three weeks, exploring places I had only dreamed of visiting. I finally had the time and freedom to just wander. I surrendered, and in that surrender, something magical happened.  I moved with ease and followed my intuition. I allowed life to unfold moment by moment.  I was in flow.

This way of being - trusting my intuition, living in the moment, and surrendering to what feels right - has become my new normal. That's how I've always wanted to live and now... I am.

When I was in “flow”, amazing things started to show up - effortlessly and often unexpectedly. Each one has felt like a clear “Yes” from the universe, guiding me towards what's truly aligned for me.

One of these moments came when a dear friend left out a book for the second time, which caught my attention. I took a moment to look at it, and that book led me to a new healing modality I'd never experienced before. I became an Access Consciousness Bars practitioner.

I went into my first Bars session feeling full of fear and self-doubt, unsure of what my healing practice would look like. By the time I walked out, something had shifted. I had clarity, I knew where I was headed.

A few months later, my acupuncturist mentioned Meridian Therapy and Tapping (MTT). The next thing I know, I'm on my way to Ecuador to become a certified MTT practitioner, which has profoundly changed my life and the lives of many others.

I also started exploring Human Design as a way to understand myself more deeply. What I found was eye-opening. It gave me insight into why I operate the way I do.  Things I used to criticize or question about myself suddenly made sense.  Instead of trying to fix or change these things I believed were not “good,” I began to accept them. I realized they weren't wrong - they were just part of how I'm wired. Learning that helped me release a lot of self-judgment and start embracing who I truly am.

I continue to welcome whatever shows up for me that feels in alignment. What a different way of living after spending most of my life trying to fit an image that was not realistic!

I am so grateful I took the time to process, rest, and rebuild. I chose to step forward, fully into the life I've only dared to imagine. It takes courage to begin again, especially when the transition wasn't my conscious choice.  Sometimes, all we have to do is step out of the way, or get pushed out of the way, and look at the path right in front of us.